Sunday Bloody Sunday
yeah, its that ficken horrid day of the week again...they day where you can be allowed to do absolutely nothing at all, but if you do, you get bored, and if you do something, it feels weird cause theres not as much conscious effort going into whatever it is you're doing because your brain knows that it's SUNDAY!!!!!!!I did end up seeing Debba today thank god she was really worring me beyond belief....i.....fair cried...alot this morning i was so scared for her...(add that to 2 1/2 days without sleep and a hangover and you get one great fucking mess to clean up)...i just layed down on the floor in the other loungeroom and just....cried so hard, i never ever do that....yeah Debba is one of my dearest mates....but it was most unatural for me to get that emotional about ANYTHING! i.............never.......cry....it's not supposed to work like that....im not sposed to get sad and breakdown.....im emmy fay...have to laugh all the time for everyones sake.....I CANT STAND BEING THE FUCKING COMIC RELIEF ANYMORE... FUCK IT ALL I HATE THIS DAMN UGLY FRONT IVE BACKED MY WAY INTO IM STUCK IN A CORNER HERE......................im...too fucken exhausted...dont care...cant stay awake...but cant sleep....if i eat i'll throw up....fuck ive got the weirdest feeling inside my head right now....im a bit scared...
posted by Emmy Fay @ Sunday, March 13, 2005
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